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bellanee_chan
05 July 2016 @ 02:56 am
  I've spent hours crying. Now I'm just numb. I don't even know how to feel, or what I feel. It's not like we were even all that close, but even with all the bullshit I went though with her, I did love her.

  Some part of me always thought she'd realize we meant more to her than the alcohol, but, and this is what hurts the most, in the end we lost that fight.

  I miss her. More so I miss what could have been... she was my mother. No matter how much I had steeled my heart against pain, this cut through like I'm no stronger than melted butter.

  For years, I only let myself think of the pain, humiliation, resentment she left in her wake... now all I want is to reverse time and undo everyting I've lost. Maybe things would be different today, if we had all reached out more... I'll never know now. I'll always live with the thoughts.
 
 
Current Music: Rainbow Connection
 
 
bellanee_chan
20 November 2012 @ 11:56 pm
Anyone else ever find themselves getting into things they never thought they would?

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Current Mood: awake
Current Music: One Direction - One Thing
 
 
bellanee_chan
27 February 2012 @ 01:25 pm
Originally posted by tessisamess at The Bullywhips
With Glee's latest and fantastic winter finale, titled On My Way, which presented some important issues and pressing topics, I know it's hard to concentrate on anything else, but I'd like to take a moment to announce a new project that is finally ready to launch, and I think after this episode, it's the perfect time to do so, as it couldn't be more prevalent in the minds of gleeks worldwide. This isn't about who you do or don't ship. It's more important than that. This is about bullying. Take a moment to go to bullywhips and take a look around. If you like what you see, join! If you really believe in the message we're trying to spread, sign the pledge!

You can also follow us on Twitter!


 
 
bellanee_chan
21 February 2012 @ 11:14 am
Sean Connery Without a doubt.
Who is the best James Bond?
 
 
bellanee_chan
23 January 2012 @ 02:19 pm
I'm a rabbit.
What is your Chinese zodiac animal?
 
 
 
bellanee_chan
18 January 2012 @ 03:38 pm
It's our most fundamental right. Without free speech, the exchange of ideas gets stifled at best and at worst obliterated.
Why is freedom of speech important to you?
 
 
bellanee_chan
15 January 2012 @ 12:42 am
This is called Diseased Marionette and I don't remember when I wrote it. 


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Write a poem or share one that you like.
 
 
Current Mood: thoughtfulthoughtful
Current Music: Silence
 
 
bellanee_chan
11 January 2012 @ 02:23 pm
What an evil question. I can't choose just one. so you're gonna get my top three (in no particular order):
  • Chris Colfer
  • Lady Gaga
  • Darren Criss
All three are on the list cause I enjoy their work and their humanitarian pursuits.
Who is your favorite celebrity right now?
 
 
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: Some news show on MSNBC
 
 
bellanee_chan
10 January 2012 @ 12:04 am
Ridiculous ramble on true love feel free to skip on by... or

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I'll leave y'all with this gem: 
We're all a little weird.  And life is a little weird.  And when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall into mutually satisfying weirdness - and call it love - true love.  ~ Robert Fulghum

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bellanee_chan
09 January 2012 @ 11:23 pm
Well to start let's put a limit on how many songs can be on this album, say 12, that seems like a good average. Format will be: Band/Singer - Song Title (Reason).
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So there you are... my picks for an all cover album.
If you were to make an album consisting of only covers, which songs would you pick to sing?
 
 
Current Music: Danny Elfman - Jack's Lament